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[13 Jun 2009|05:35am] |
New avatar! yay...
I guess I've been alright.
I have not been able to sleep during the night time in a few weeks. I mean I sleep during the day time but I'm not too concerned. I tend to get a few hours sleep before the sun comes up and come home from work to sleep a little more. Every night I miss sleep, my mind echos through the most random thoughts and it gets irritating trying to get to sleep. I told my dad that I've been having issues sleeping lately and I think he's actually slightly concerned. My dad had his mental breakdown about 15 years ago thanks to his inability to sleep. My brother had a breakdown about 10 years ago for something similar. In fact, I'm hiding out in Russell's living room because I am staying the night here and I can't get to sleep. I watched Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children fully for the first time. Not a bad movie. Looked realistic at times. Pretty good story though. It makes me want to go back and play the game...maybe even finish the game this time around. x.o I'm terrible at these things. lol
Work has been kind of sucky lately. Normally, I am one of those people that live for staying busy. But they decided that my old department didn't really need to exist anymore. So I got thrown in with the Merchandising team. So instead of having my normal decent interactions with customers, I now have to deal with ONLY putting product out on the floor.....and that's about it.....fun stuff. But the sad thing is, I enjoyed talking to the customers. Unfortunately, the department thrown in charge of media (who are doing absolutely TERRIBLE at it by the way) are a high pressure sales department. So they obviously want to make a big sale instead of finding the Kelly Clarkson CD. Which might be for the best because apparently it's too hard for customers and employee's to look for an artist under their last name first. I always assumed that it was a given considering that most people have in all likelihood bought a CD before. But I guess that may or may not be too much to ask.
School is going alright. I enjoy the idea of school. It's a great idea. If I get through it, it'll be a stupendous idea. But this semester, I'm just not into it. One of the classes I needed in order to graduate in December, was conveniently cancelled. My teachers are awesome but again, my love of sleepign during the day seems to not be fond of going to class. I should have change my availability to work to being open on Tuesdays and Thursdays but my job can just deal with it because, lets face it, my health is more important then putting 10 more copies of Twilight on the lfoor with the other 20 copies of Twilight. The more I think about my job, the more I want to graduate from Trident, and move on to my "real college" status and hopefully get a decent job as far away from my current job as possible.
I know this is a long entry, but I figure that if I write down all of the stuff that's been bothering me, (god forbid) I'll actually go to sleep.
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[06 May 2009|02:48am] |
Welll...I made it through this semester. Should have done better but this semester has been hell. I guess it's my own fault though. Now I can relax for a month before having to go back to school. Ugh.
My job position at Best Buy changed because they got rid of the media department. So now I am "Merch Team." which basically means that I still do all the media work without having to talk to customers. I do like talking to customers but this also give me more freedom to change things in the store around. mwahahahaha.
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[25 Apr 2009|02:21pm] |
I figured that I'd go ahead and change my course of bad luck...or not. Freaking exams are going to drive me insane btw. Just letting everyone know.
I have 2 essays, 1 critique, 1 test, and 4 exams over the next week.
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[19 Apr 2009|04:42am] |
This is the BEST feeling in the world. I just got home from a party and it was hella fun.
Now I get to sleep and I hate to say it but I always love falling asleep after drinking because it's the only time I feel truly relaxed.
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[15 Apr 2009|06:47pm] |
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I watch iCarly. That show is such a guilty pleasure.
Damn you Nickelodeon.
I also can't wait to buy the game inFamous....because i'm a dork.
Somebody left a milkshake in my car for a week or so....ironic that as I was driving home after seeing Phil in the hallway at Trident, I spilled the milkshake on my foot the following day. I can only fill in the blanks. -.- :D
I want Ye Ole Fashioned fries..
I also find it interesting that when I go to update this journal, I always have saved drafts that I don't bother ever posting.
So yeah...hi Livejournal community!
I have to start on my homework for school. Bahhhh.
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[10 Apr 2009|02:11am] |
So I've now determined that i like Kanye West as long as I don't view him as a person and only view him as a rapper pop star.
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[27 Mar 2009|05:10am] |
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I keep having dreams about Niko. I miss my kitty. This one, he was standing right over me and I reached out and grabbed him excitedly and then I woke up. :(
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[15 Mar 2009|03:56am] |
So I think my cold is finally getting over and done with. Now I have to catch up with...well...everything with school.
Wednesday night was the night where I pretty much did this number
I wrote my 5 page essay. Went to bed at 5 a.m. Woke up at 7 to go to work. Went from work to home to clean. To clean to school to take test I wasn't aware of due to my absences. Went to next class to take other test and turn in essay. Went to Russell's house where he gave me something for my cold. And through a combined effort of too little sleep, too much sickness, and medication, I managed to fall into a slumber that felt more like a hallucination then anything else. ugh.
I ended up skipping class Friday..So I have to make up for the team work somehow. Went to work that afternoon and cleaned a little more for my dad's birthday party today. 69 years old....wow. Sad thing is, he acts younger now then he did over the last few years. It's good to see him with interests.
BTW, I only have 2 cats now.....Jojo and Chelsea....fucking stupid ass bitch ass fucking neighbor has been abducting cats in the neighborhood and we don't know where she put them. We assumed they ran off because of mating season/ran away from home but we saw the trap she's been catching them in. Called the cops. Didn't do anything. Called the SPCA. Didn't do anything. I want to shove the woman into the cat trap and drop her ass off in the woods like she's probably done to all of my cats. She had a cat trap FACING my yard and the cops didn't do shit about it. They said it's legal to catch cats and take them to the SPCA...I went to the SPCA...none of my cats are at any of the ones near my house. I digress. I can't help but be beeeyooooond pissed. I've seen all of those cats grow up...and it explains why Fatty, the cat that followed me from my house, to my apartment, back to my house randomly disappeared last year. Don't mean to rant but I am absolutely pissed at the situation. x.o
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[08 Dec 2008|06:42pm] |
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Have you ever looked back and thought "Wow. I was completely off there."
Well, I always thought of myself as a good friend, a nice guy, didn't do much wrong.
Well, looking back at old journal entries, I realized that I was a complete idiot. I thought that I was being such a great friend to people when all I was doing was typing silly journal entries about how mad i was at the world. It was a terrible thing to do and I really should have tried to not be so wrapped up in myself that I didn't treat people the way they should have been. Despite reading other peoples journals things that I should have just let go, I would hold grudges, get angry, ignore people and even worse, I would start drifting myself apart from people that actually meant something to me.
I really shouldn't have taken my friends for granted, I'm sorry to all of those people who have ever been hurt or ignored by me in the past and even in the present. I really seem to have let a lot of great friendships dissipate right underneath me. Sorry guys.
I'm not depressed or anything. This isn't a plea for attention or help. It's more like a thank you to all of those who have supported me for so long and being good to you guys, despite my random pointless sour moments.
- Joe
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[16 Sep 2008|12:29am] |
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Um. I don't really know what to say on here. I have been kind of down lately. Hopefully it's just the calm before the storm (hooray for October. Halloween, birthday, anniversary, 1 year job evaluation and the fair). Hoping everything manages to stop sucking in October when it comes to the world around. Of course then again, most of these hellish instances began in September but we'll probably feel the repercussion throughout October. Hooray for economic crashes, hurricanes and large hadron colliders. I'm not saying that the world is going to end in October, I'm just saying that I'm sure that there will be a lot of interesting things happening due to those things (or what normally happens, a lot of hype over nothing). Oh, and the election at the beginning of November. I'm still leaning towards Obama but that's because I haven't had the time to check all the specs out for McCain except that he's old and pulled a complete 180 since the election he was in a few years ago. I'm pretty sure that I hate Sarah Palin. Cause the Media hates her, therefore, that gives me the right to hate her. Joe Biden is a saint....or something. I don't know. I guess he's getting the least flack since he's a White Middle-aged Male (and we all know how the country always roots for the underdog). Hooray for sexists and racists. ;)
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[02 Mar 2008|03:36am] |
I've been kind of angry for no real reason lately. I don't quite understand whats going on with me.
I'm so fucking sick of Will working at Best Buy. He's the most fucking incompetant peice of shit I've ever had to deal with. He is a complete moron. I work my ass off to make sure every customer is approached because his lazy ass feels that he can get away with doing nothing. Then he asks to leave early. I think he was full of shit when he asked to leave early. He "threw up." oh fucking well. I am sick of him getting away with everyone. If someone has an alcohol problem and they throw up randomly at work, I have no sympathy for them.
I honestly believe that he simply didn't want to work today and that's the only reason that he "was sick." He tried to tell Jocelyn that she had to close if she got off at 10, even if he pulled the opposite shit on me last week by saying "i'm only scheduled until 7." I am honestly too nice. Media would run so much more smoothly if Will got fired. He's the most worthless sack of shit i've ever worked with. I dislike him so much. It's like taking all the potential to be a good person and then completely disregarding EVERY THING. I am so full of dislike and distrust for him.
The other girl that I can't stand working with was fired earlier this week. She deserved it. I think she was the one who was stealing shit from the store. She wasn't much of a great person either. Honestly, I like about half the people in my department but the dislike for those people who I don't like kind of overaccentuates itself sometimes. haha.
Oh well, hopefully i'll be out of that place by August. It's a fun job but I've got some better plans about after the summer.
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[17 Feb 2008|12:41pm] |
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So...yep. The coaxial for my DirectTv is now broken due to the fact that my tv (and anything on top of it, felt suicidal and fell over. My television is fine but who knew that cable wouldn't act as a bungee cord? It shouldn't be too hard to get fixed but at this moment I lack the time. sad no? Oh well. It'll get fixed soon. At least I've got 100.5 and my laptop.
And my ps3, if i ever have enough time to play it. I really really really want to play Devil May Cry 4 and Ratchet and Clank, but because I'm always on the go, there's little to no time to do it. Once spring break rolls around, I'll play it the whole time and skip out on social interaction. But not really.
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[11 Feb 2008|06:19pm] |
Well I guess I should update a little bit. I guess I've been happy yet slightly depressed. Fatty is missing. We honestly don't know where she disappeared to. I keep on trying to think that she's just pregnant and disappeared. Or that someone who doesn't have so many animals has found her and is taking care of her. I'm actually very upset by the fact that we can't find her.
Ever get the feeling like there are people you want to give you attention but completely lack interest and then there are people you want to give attention to but you do not want it. I actually feel really bad about my busy schedule and I also feel bad when old friends just completely lack any form of interest in talking to me. It actually bothers me a lot. I know they have other stuff going on in their life. And it doesn't necessarily mean that they have any issues with me, they are just at a different place then where I am in my life. Still, reminiscing is kind of upsetting because I think of all the good times I've had with certain people and I feel bad because either I lack the time for them or they lack the time for me. I guess it's a crash course in reality. Although it might not seem as though it is true, I do appreciate all of my friends and all the memories that I have are the positive ones, I don't really even think of the negatives or drama (and believe me, I instigated my fair share of it) whenever I go back in my mind.
This isn't one of those "omg i lost all of my friends" posts. It's mainly just a realization. I do still have friends but I just feel that people should know that...
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[28 Jan 2008|11:21pm] |
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Yipes. I guess I'm getting a little over my head. I'd be perfectly fine getting through this semester without a problem but I guess I could be over burdening myself. I have signed up for 6 classes and a lab and I am refusing to give up at any of them because I know I can do it and I'm stubborn as hell. I've also got about 20 hours a week of work on average in which I manage to swing. My main issue, I keep missing days due to either my mother being sick or me just simply not feeling well. This has been my worst physically healthy year to date. I have been sick 3 times in a single month. I usually go a good 10 months without even feeling bad at all. In this past month, I have had Shingles (adult chicken pox), food poisoning, random stomach aches and a tooth has fallen apart in my mouth (not completely so i still have that enchantingly amazing pain that comes with that issue). I would honestly enjoy it if I could start working out and maybe I'd be able to feel a little less strained doing...well..everything. I plan on taking care of myself as a late "new year resolution" in 2008.
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[22 Dec 2007|02:15am] |
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I don't know. I'm sometimes just kind of out there. December was never in style for me. I guess you could say that I'm whipped but I'm not whipped. He's not even telling me what I should do yet I end up feeling weird. This isn't anywhere near as serious as I'm making it out to be. I miss him so much and he's only been gone for 12 hours. I don't know why I feel this way. I just miss him. He's such a great guy and no matter what I say, I never feel weird after I speak to him. :/
I did have a great night. I miss both Brads and Sam. I dunno. The people I didn't know kind of made me feel odd but I kind of avoided them. I guess I'm just not feeling like being around strangers today. Oh well.
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[18 Dec 2007|05:00am] |
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I'm up way too late tonight. I guess I'm trying too hard to actually get something accomplished. I managed to bring my gpa up from a 1.0 to a 2.0. Next semester I'm cracking down by taking courses I want even if it's 6 classes. I also asked to get dropped to 18-24 hours a week so i'm not killing myself over school and work. I need to sleep I suppose. goodnight folks.
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[07 Nov 2007|01:48am] |
I guess I should update. Or something. Why does the O look like a 0? I'm really just kind of tired and ready for this semester to be over with. I guess I'm getting that "college experience" for the first time. lol.
I'm working not quite full time but if I was, I'd probably be even more exhausted right now. I don't know how I'm managing it, but I think I have B's in almost all of my classes. In 1 semester, I have managed to tackle Western Civilization from the Mesopotamians all the way to modern days (or as modern as history classes go.) I've managed to tackle my greatest fear of letting an English teacher butcher my writing (or not so much apparently). And I've brought my C in computer to a B (for now at least). I plan on studying everything so that I can do well on my finals I guess.
I started at Best Buy. No. I'm not letting people use my discount. I hear that EVERY SINGLE DAY almost and I don't even have my discount for another few weeks. And I'm not jeopardizing my job for someone who has never "hooked me up" in my life. lol.
oh. I am very much sleep deprived so I guess I should get to that.
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[18 Oct 2007|01:19am] |
My cat and I are in an epic never ending battle. She keeps meowing and I keep attempting to ignore her. I just want to win.
edit: this could be bad because I don't want her to pee on everything in the house. I guess I lose this battle but I will have my vengeance.
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[06 Oct 2007|09:19am] |
*blank stare*
I can't believe I'm awake right now. I was so excited last night that I get to sleep in today and I wake up at 9 am because a voice mail from last night just went through. I'll probably attempt to get to sleep again soon.
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